day 22 | kunjair

 

"turn your inside out, let it shine.
that's what it's all about.
go on and turn your inside out.
let it shine. you are doing fine."
...



dear you again my sweet p,


this postcard surprised me when i had found it in mailbox yesterday.
i had to quickly look at the last line after seeing the first line 
"สวัสดีครับ". i felt more surprised. it's you!! 

flashback: once we were so close and once we were too far.
we took about a year to realize how to act to each other
after the ending of our relationship. 


you had tears for me, you got hurt. 
i didn't have tear, but i got hurt either.
we got hurt and felt awkward for years, we know.



in spite of the truth that our relationship didn't go well,
our friendship still remains. perhaps, it's a fate that 
someone upon the sky want us to be in our lives forever.
we talk sometimes. we hang out when you come back to hometown.
you live your life and i live mine. but we've never been out of connection.
...



we got hurt.
we were healed.
friendship goes on.




a guy who was my short-term boyfriend.
a guy who has been my long-term good friend.
it's you my sweet p.


"somehow it all will be okay.
not gonna worry life away.
gonna be happy, gonna be happy today.
maybe i'll change the world that way.
maybe i'll change the world that way.
gonna be happy, gonna be happy today." 
...



to be honest, it's very private note.
but i think it needs to be written here.



 

kunjair